Flawed

In Hollywood the very perfect looking people never get good roles. That's because, perfection is BORING. John Malcovitch-ugly, Danny Devito-little, Nick Cage...I mean come on, have you looked at his face? The list can go on; Angelina's lips are too big, Jodi Foster is plain, Jack Nicholson is creepy. It's their flaws that made them famous. The same can go for internal flaws. Flaws can be quite charming, and even be....dare I say it...beautiful. It's not common thought that flaws are the things that can make you, or make you beautiful, but when we look at some of our most beloved characters in literature; King David and his wild passions, Scarlet O' Hara and her relentless and sometimes cruel determination to survive and even that blasted Bella Swan and her self sacrificial stupidity that makes a handsome and perfect immortal fall in love with her; we see that without these flaws-there would be no stories. You see on the opposite side of David's passions-which led him to kill a man for a hottie named Bathsheba-was a man described as "Having a heart after God's own heart". God himself bragged about the quality of David's heart. I mean, without David's wild passions, there would be no Psalms, no story about a brave boyling taking out a giant with a little sling. If David had been passionless, he wouldn't have done any of the courageous and awsome things we know him for. But, the same spirit that led him to dance through the city in his underoo's was a twin to the passion that made him spy on a married woman like a royal pervert. Can I just say; I HEART DAVID! He's in the Bible for goodness sakes, stamped into history... flaws and all.....-and God used him-flaws and all. And he'll use you. But, not while you are drowning in your flaws. By this I mean being so focused on yourself and your shortcomings that you miss what is the good twin to your flaw.
Sometimes, you won't be the brain in the family, or you'll be the brain and have no creative instincts, or you'll be the ugly duckling, OR you'll be the pretty that one no one takes seriously. But, perhaps if you had been the brain, you would have been focused on becoming a doctor and would have missed the hands on path that God wanted you to take. If you were pretty, you might have been shallow and missed that awsome spirit of compassion you developed in its place. If you had brains and beauty, you might not have had to work as hard as you do now to prove yourself, which as a result produced a strong spirit. Even the things that make you sulk and chew your hair-have purpose. So, next time when you start fretting about how you are not the smart one, or the pretty one, or the creative one...remember that you are not those things for a purpose. Don't covet what you are not supposed to have. Having those things might have ruined you. I often wonder why God couldn't have given me a stronger talent for writing....or for dancing....or for singing. Why I am just mediocre at everything I do (including school). Focusing on this, could make me feel inferior and could also make me forsake the things I love to do. For those of you who know me...actually for those of you who have even only glanced at me-know that I lean a tad towards arrogant. If I had been any better at anything I do, I would have been a monster. As a result of my flaws; I work hard to improve, I never give up and let myself get discouraged and I remain humbled. God uses this. In ministry terms; I never give up on people, I never go away until I've shaken things up- no matter how much you tell me to...and I humbly serve a creator that actually chose a rotter like me. My flaws work for me. I enjoy the fact that I'm not the smartest, not the best writer...not the NEXT AMERICAN IDOL, because I know there is purpose in that. God needed me to go down his path, and if my head had been any bigger than it is now, I would not have developed the intense compassion and the desire to help people that composes every part of who I am. So, when you think about what you aren't-think about what you are because of what you aren't....and love it!